sarah_tanner's blog

Mood: 

Confused

the computer, along with everything else in the house, is in need of a massive upgrade. I don't even know how they got it to work, it's so old.

I know I'm suppose to be keeping a journal. I don't know how the scientists are suppose to keep track of whether or not I'm actually writing in it, but I don't really want to find out.

I got through the night, despite the dark. And the howling of whatever...wolves? God. I'm almost afraid to climb out of this tent now. What are we suppose to do to defend ourselves, should those things move closer every night? It terrifies me to even think about it.

There is nothing more depressing than realizing that you're still in love with a man who has never loved you and will never love you back.

More depressing to realize that you have to spend the next however many months, days, hours of your life watching him happily in love with someone else.

I'm a strong person. I have always been a strong person.

But I don't know if I can do this.

11:55pm

I guess this is something I'm suppose to be doing. I met Torlin. She's friendly and maybe someone I can sort of attach myself too in an non-clingy/creepy way. Just someone else in the house that seems as lost as I do. Adam was decent too. We'd agreed on swimming together. Ha. Swimming. Well, it's something, isn't it? He seems like he needs to have a bit as fun just like I do.

3:45pm

Hello! I figured this would be a good idea, and probably less annoying than coming to knock on all of your doors personally, so I wanted to introduce myself. I'm Sarah, I'm 22 and I just arrived this afternoon from Manchester. Hopefully I can meet you all face to face for a proper introduction, but until then, hopefully this will do.