Private Entry

Mood: 

Indescribable

"i used to be the smart one,
sharp as a tack.
funny that how skipping years ahead
has held me back.
i used to be the bright one,
top of my class.
funny what they give you,
when you just learn how to ask.

...

can't you just do it for me?
i'll pay you well.
fuck, i'll pay you anything,
if you could end this.
can't you just fix it for me?
it's gone berserk.
oh fuck, i'll give you anything
if you could make the damn thing work.
can't you just fix it for me?
i'll pay you well.
oh fuck, i'll pay you anything
if you could end this hell.

hello, oh won't you tell me your name?
hello, i'm good for nothing.
will you love me just the same?"

sometimes i wish there was a god. sometimes i want the refuge and the guidance and the assurance.
today i just want the fucking vengeance.
i envy those with faith.