Private Journal Entry - APRIL 7, 2006

Last night was... If I say amazing, do I sound like a girl? I've been thinking about it all day, thinking back to what Dan did to me, how much he means to me. I couldn't have handled that last week. If you'd asked me yesterday, I'd have said I couldn't have handled it then. But he can be so gentle and loving and distracting and... and devious. And I love that little bit of deviousness.

It continues to catch me off guard, how much I'm willing to do for him, with him. Things I'd never considered, never thought I'd even come close to wanting. And now I understand why I want them, and how. It's so very different from before. I don't think anyone could have explained it to me. I wouldn't have believed them.

I have to admit that I liked it, at least to myself, and to Dan. Not that he couldn't tell, but I won't deny it. It's just between us. Private. Special. I am constantly shocked by how much I've changed since moving into this house. I believe it's for the better.