I think I've gone insane.

4:13AM, Wednesday, September 12
Music: None

I think I'm going crazy. First taking feeding donations when I *know* I shouldn't, then chasing down Acherus and *killing* them, and now thinking about *kissing* someone. Oh, and then chasing down *more* Acherus, and prowling around making sure the town is well quit of them before I came home.

It beat freaking out about the kiss thing.

What is *wrong* with me? The last time I considered something like that I was in college. *College*! That was ten years ago!

And not just anyone. *Delilah*! There is no way, *no* way, I could do that to her. Even if she *was* curious about being bitten... and seemed to, er, like it a bit... that does *not* mean she'd put up with something like that!

God, can I even *kiss* a living person, now? Wouldn't the fangs get in the way? I mean, when Jared's friends do it, they're both Strigoi, they just bite each other and heal up and it's no big deal. But with a living person, it's got to be different. How would it work?

Why am I even thinking about that! It's *not* going to happen. So stop thinking about it. If I should be freaking out about anything, it should be the six Acherus I've staked, now. *Six*. But no, I'm freaking out about wanting to kiss Delilah. I don't even know. Maybe I really *am* going insane.

Though I have to wonder, was this what Konnor felt like when he "had feelings" for me?

Dammit. I don't really want to think about *that*, either.

I'm going to go take a shower and get all this blood and muck off me. I feel like I'm disgusting and dirty and I'm never going to be clean again, but a shower might help. Maybe. And then I'm going to recheck Patches' poor bones. And I'm *not* going to think about Delilah.

*Or* Konnor.